Lame but..

I don't feel like keeping track of my subscription count on my youtube page any more...it makes me feel somewhat lame or as if that's all I'm concerned about...but I just thought it was a nice way to show people my progress, that's all.

No one brought this up to me, lol! I just got this impression of my OWN self that it just looked...desperate...

but I just think it's cool to look back on :)

I now have over 1,000 subscribers and I know that it's all because of Onision...I was never expecting him to make the video response to my video...but I apreciated that more than anything. I am so glad to know someone like him, he truly is a great human being that I will forever and always support.

I even told him..how, compared to his numbers, my subscription count is basically nottthhing. But. It HONESTLY is more than I have ever expected and asked for...I never knew I'd even make it to 100...hell, I didn't even know that I was going to even make anymore videos after my FIRST one!....But...I did continue to make more videos...and I did manage to reach 1,000 subscribers....and I reached that number a fucking lot faster than I ever would have because of Onision...and in a way, that's kind of dissappointing on my own end..a little...but, I'm happy about the fact that if I'm going to have ANY sort of audience watching me, that the subscribers I have are also subscribers of Onision. Onision fans are the coolest people, and so I'm hoping they will like me too :) I think we all tend to see things on the same level, you know? Or at least that's how I feel...I don't know!...blah...I am grateful! very very grateful!


The only thing that worries me, though...is that..I feel like most of my new followers just subscribed to me by impulse...like, meaning...I don't know...I just hope they aren't expecting much of me...I'm not really that great at making videos. I guess I jsut got lucky when I randomly decided to film and post my last one, heh :/
I just don't want to dissappoint anyone...
new subscribers...old subscribers..


But I'm going to aim for more videos that are focused on one topic.
Every one of my videos that are done in that style all seem to have the most positive feedback...
...We'll see what I can do..

Again, I'm very busy with school work, and youtube is just a hobby...it's something I enjoy doing..but it's not my life.
So...please don't hold me on any kind of platform, I'm not ready for that :/

So far... this is my progress:

100 subscribers - 12/4/09
200 subscribers - 12/24/09
300 subscribers - 1/14/10
400 subscribers - 1/26/10
500 subscribers - 1/30/10
600 subscribers - 1/30/10
700 subscribers - 1/31/10
800 subscribers - 1/31/10
900 subscribers - 1/31/10
1000 subscribers - 1/31/10



So...yep :P