I am a loser.

Wowwoowowowowo. I wanted to post this as my status on facebook, but it was too long :/ So..I'm just going to turn to my lil blog here because I don't want to bee annnoyyyinggg on twitter with this sob story I need to throw on you guys.......anywayss.......

Have you ever lost something that had a lot of sentimental value to you? :( I have managed to keep this miniature rose, literally the size of a toothpick, for the last two/three years...I had this crazy little three day romance with a teen magician when I was on vacation a few years ago...and he magically made the rose appear for me the last day we hung out, before I had to leave..and I have always kept it in the same place since...but I can't find it right now, and it's literally breaking my heart :/ aghhh......-cries-.....Not that I am or was in love with the guy at all, butttttttttttt I just love holding on to good/fun memories...you know? Like...there was not a bad moment that I had during those three summer nights with him...obviously it was something simple, and sweet...and I am thankful that it stayed that way because then it wouldn't be such a good memory for me.


UGHHHHHH.

FAQ

How do you pronounce your name?
Kar-libra..or, if you break it down even more…kar-lee-bruh. It is not pronounced “karli-BRA” but I am not bothered when people mess up. It’s whatevs.


What does your name mean? How did you get it?
It’s Karli and Libra joined together. Karli +Libra = Karlibra.
My friend Jonathan gave it to me a few years ago and it stuck.
He even named his kitten Karlibra.

Are you a natural blonde?
Yep. I have golden blonde hair naturally, but I put light blonde highlights throughout my hair.


How old are you?
I am 17..

How long have you been a vegetarian for?
Since April 20th 2008


Are you single?
I am single.


Where did you get your DEATH bracelet?
I got it from a girl named Jac Vanek three years ago. She sells a whole bunch of bracelets with different words on them, but she no longer makes the Death one.


Where did you get your rings?
The large golden skull ring and the huge red ruby ring I got from a girl named Audrey Kitching last year. My other rings are either costume jewelry rings, cheap ones I got from gas stations during roadtrips, or in Chinatown in NYC.


Why do you make videos on youtube?
It was an accident. And then it randomly became a hobby after a month of doing it. It’s just for fun, and so I can connect with more people like myself. I also do it as a sort of therapy for my emotions..it really helps me figure out what’s on my mind. I also do it because I honestly have nothing better to do…I enjoy making videos, especially if people say they are worth watching.


What lipstick brand do you wear?
Make Up For Ever lipliner and then Make Up For Ever lipstick. I’d buy MAC lipsticks if the music in all of their stores wouldn’t be so god damn loud…it makes my anxiety really bad when trying to shop. They cost less than the MUFE lipsticks, but I just can’t handle all that fucking noise..so I pay the extra few dollars. I don’t care.


How tall are you?
I'm 5'2", yo.


How many relationships have you been in?
I’ve been in one or two real relationships, depending on how you look at them. But then there are also a few people that I never officially dated with the title of being “Girlfriend and Boyfriend”..but we definitely had something between us…I don’t know what you’d call it though.


Why do you swear so much?
I don't swear that fuckin' much, dude.

I need...

Right now, I need every single Nine Inch Nails cd..because I'm on the search for a song I heard last summer and I really need to know what it is....

It has to be one of these...I'm not sure which one though..I feel like it's the first song from the first video?...:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iv8xhPdNyTM&feature=quicklist
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVh1q28Ijlg&feature=quicklist


that's all...




























I'm trying to listen to every song while looking at this picture...because I heard it when I was laying outside at night, looking at the sky and there were a zillion stars out.

Sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure.

What the fucking hell am I preaching?
I need to take a risk, and just suffer the consequences
for the sake of myself needing to experience something new.
I’ve got room for bruises. Blood to spill.

I hate this shit. I fucking hate this shit.
I just want to discover a new reason to breathe… a new way to breathe.

Just listening to music that reminds me of the past…terrible decision but I feel like feeling depressed. What a sad truth right there.
And I have never imagined myself ever saying this…but I really fucking miss you.
I don’t care what happened, or what you did.
I just like the ignorance we shared with each other, and I liked that, because we were at least happy.



I will regret these words in the morning, and that’s what will make them so beautiful.
Fuckin’ raw, man.


Goodnight.

Honey.

You can cry all you want to,
I don't care how much you'll invest yourself in me.
We're not working out.

Yey!

I think more girls should wear crazy lipstick colors....I'm all for it!!
You definitely have to have a wild personality to pull it off, you can NOT be self conscience while wearing a crazy color or else people will think you're crazy.



I have been told countless times that I am the only person who is able to pull off black lipstick but that's NOT true..if you feel and know that you can...you CAN!! :D
To me...lipstick is an accessory...I wear lipstick like others wear jewelry.
I use it to compliment my outfit, NOT to match it entirely..
Be creative, have fun!
My suggestion to figuring out if you can pull off a daring color, even just red!, is to first buy a lil cheapie lipstick...these of course will smear off within 20 minutes..but at least you'll get to see if you like the color on you or not.
THEN, if you figure out that you DO like daring colors, go ahead and spend $20 dollars on an expensive lipstick from Sephora or Mac.
These high end lipsticks will stay on for HOURS and will not feather or fade.
But the key to keeping these colors on even LONGER, is to purchase a lipliner in the same shade, a nude shade, or a clear shade...
OR! A lipstain..which is something I SWEAR BY if you want the perfect kiss-proof red or pink lips!
A lipstain is perfect for women about to get married, because they want a flattering lipcolor that will NOT rub off on their husband to be.

ANYWAYS!
Just felt inspired to write this...because a girl I follow on twitter mentioned that she took my tip of getting a lipstain and bought some lip products from sephora today!
That honestly made me so so so happy :)
I loveeeeee helping others feel and look their best...and I honestly think more girls should experiment with makeup!
Because to me....makeup is an ART ;D

Top 15 Favorite Movies..

1.Sweeney Todd
2.Requiem For A Dream
3.Waking Life
4.Queen of the Damned
5.Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
6.Party Monster
7.Thirteen
8.Blow
9.Monster
10.One Hour Photo
11.Peter Pan
12.The Dark Knight
13.Walk the Line
14.What's Eating Gilbert Grape
15.Donnie Darko